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Today, I wish to talk a little bit about the Stand-Alone-Complex and I already see you, the readers, sit in front of your screen and not understanding a thing. What is a Stand-Alone-Complex (which I'll refer to as SAC in this text) and what does this have to do with these topics in the title? Well, let's start from the beginning. Let's explain what and why and how and everything the SAC is.

The SAC is something that was introduced to me first in the Anime-series: 'Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex'. It refers to a phenomenon of mass-hysteria. The basic idea is that the idea of a certain event or person is spread over the media, something the people believe is real (like a revolutionary book or a political hacker) which is, however, not real. The knowledge of this fictional object of admiration leads to people getting influenced by it, leading to the rise of certain ideals and to copycats. Let's give you a more detailed example from the first SAC-series.

A hacker mysteriously kidnaps a CEO of a company and later lets him free at a public place but not before forcing him at gunpoint to admit a case of fraud. He does so in front of a running, streaming TV camera. Despite that, nobody sees his face because he hacks the camera feed in real time, covering his face with a logo. He becomes known as the Laughing Man. Followed by this incident, multiple cybercrimes some connected with the logo, some not become public and the Laughing Man gets the credit for them all. However, in most of these cases, the original hacker was not the person behind it. He is not the Laughing Man, he is just the one the idea of this figure started with. When a hacker later blames a political figure to be involved in corruption and asks for his execution, numerous people attempt to kill him, completely individual from each other, all following the ideals of this mysterious hacker that in reality never existed. In this case, the SAC was created unintentionally; nobody had the motivation to blame the Laughing Man for all these crimes (committed by different people, as I must stress out), it was just a combination of media hysteria and bad police investigation.

The idea of a SAC is fictional. But it comes surprisingly close to reality, as I want to show in a few examples.

The first example would be the comic V like Vendetta. In this movie, a revolutionary, hiding behind a Guy-Fawkes-mask, commits a series of crimes over a year, to remind the people of this man and to ultimately bring a fascist government in a dystrophic UK on its knees, while mobilizing the people to stand up against it. This comic was made into a movie, which became incredibly famous worldwide; not at the beginning though but when the Anonymous-movement started to use Guy-Fawkes-masks to hide their faces on demonstrations and in the Internet and also to have a symbol to connect them. This mask is the key of the identity of Anonymous at least in my eyes. One could argue that the movement would have existed without the mask, mainly because its motivation is political, but I see this mask as a symbol that gave the movement massive media attention and made it as strong as it is now. Anonymous is almost a SAC, the only difference is that people know that V is a fictional character. There is an example however that may be even closer to what I mean. Beware though, this may piss some people off, because now, I bring religion in.

I must point out though that I do not want to talk about all religions. Hinduism, for example, is strictly excluded from my example, because it never tries to show that it is real, nor does it give laws to people. Hinduism is more a collection of myths and legends to tell the people a metaphorical story to deliver a certain message.
What I mean are the Abrahamic Religions and yes, I mean all three: Judaism, Christianity, Islam. These three religions have a few things in common that make them interesting regarding the SAC: they point out special laws for their followers (ranging from the Ten Commandments to less obvious ones, such as in the Suras and so on) and they all insist that they are the truth, that the one God exists, that the prophets lived and that the historical events happened as described. Some even argue that the whole Bible/Qur'an/Thora are ultimate truths, even parts other argue to be metaphorical stories, such as the tale of creation. If you see the religions from an atheistic point of view, you can instantly see the parallels to the Stand-Alone-Complex: A fictional story and history that has a large effect on society, leading to people changing their life completely and even to large-scale wars. And while the basic Abrahamic Religions would be unintentional SACs then most likely, whoever wrote the bible didn't think of such an effect or intended it an intentional example would be Mormonism. The book of Mormon was written in modern times, partially opposes the Bible and was most likely created as a tool of mass-control.

And what is my intention in this text? My final conclusion, my ultimate point? It's simple: I personally think that the SAC is not a fictional idea but a real sociological phenomenon, and one that we may observe more often, especially in the age of Internet. And while I do not want to recommend this or anything, I must say that there is a theoretical possibility to artificially create a SAC, whatever the motivation for that may be. And also, I wish that people would learn from this text to think about what they hear and observe before they act accordingly to it.
Yesterday, I found a wonderful game on newgrounds.com, a game called 'Socrates Jones: Pro Philo' ( www.newgrounds.com/portal/view… ). It is a game whose mechanics remind one strongly of the 'Phoenix Wright'-series - just that it is about philosophy or, more accurately, about finding the nature of morality.
Yepp, it is quite a hard game and the fact that I discovered it at 3 in the morning didn't EXACTLY help...
BUT. By its mechanisms, it works pretty well. You are, practically, talking with multiple philosophers, including Hobbes, Mills and Kant to find out about their views on morality and critically review them, to find flaws and reject or accept them as your choice. Thus, by analysing the views on morality of the highest thinkers, you try to find one answer that satisfies you. To prove the philosophers wrong, you use parts of their own statement.
The game was very amusing and very inspiring. After playing it (finished at 5am) and lying in my bed and thinking about it (it's a joy to wake up with birds singing, not to fall asleep with them) I had a few of my own thoughts about morality. I want to present them to you and must ask you to TRY and find flaws in my argumentation, since there is no other way to further evolve my theory. I will present my theory point by point and try to bring a structure in.

Basic problem of morality:
-Morality is about choices of right/good and wrong/bad.
-There is no clear definition of what's right and wrong. Many people have different perceptions of right and wrong; what ULTIMATELY is right or wrong is defined by morality.
-People have different views on what's right and wrong and mostly try to do their best, even if it may seem immoral to others.
-Different people can back their views on what's right/good by logical arguments; others can find flaws in their views by logical arguments. So far, no perfect moralic laws have been found yet that apply to everyone in every situation.
-Most, if not all people who commit acts based on morality do so because they want to cause happiness (instantly or in the future) or want to prevent unhappiness. The majority of the people will agree that happiness is good.
This brings us to the following conclusions:
-Morality is subjective; it is based on the SITUATION as well as on the individual PERCEPTION of the situation.
-Morality is about doing good and happiness is good, thus, making as many people as possible as happy as possible is morally right.

Or is it. Let's take two examples where happiness is created where the way of doing so may not be morally right. I will start to explain the first one: drugs.
-Drugs cause happiness, and quite a huge ammount of it AND do this instantly. The happiness created is so strong that it leads to mental addiction.
-Some drugs have health disadvantages however. This means that those who take them will be unhappy in the future from taking drus (because they'll be ill and die).
-Also, the addiction will lead to criminality, which makes others unhappy.
-Because the long-term unhappiness is stronger then the short-term happiness, drugs aren't good anymore.
This brings the conclusion:
-When thinking about which action is good, one must think about the long-term effects.

Now, the second example. This is an example that most of you will know: The Matrix.
-In the Matrix, people are fairly happy, since they live in an illusional world which is happier than the world they physically live in.
-While being happy in the Matrix, they are physically exploited in real life.
-Most people who find out about that are hurt by the destruction of their worldview and suffer from that. They chose to live in the real world, to fight this system of exploitation.
-There are, however, people who chose the Matrix over the real world and did so knowingly. Because they don't harm anyone by this basic choice and are happier themselves, this is not immoral. Therefore, the simple existance of an illusional world like a Matrix isn't wrong or bad.
-What IS wrong is the fact that the humans who are part of the Matrix didn't have this choice; they were born and instantly forced to live under these circumstances.
-It also is wrong because the creators of the Matrix chose their slavery knowingly. It is not something that couldn't be changed, like the restriction of freedom by living in a physical body (like any human does). It was a conscious act.
This brings us to the conclusion:
-Something is only good if it respects the personal freedom of everyone.

So far, so good, right? However, I must bring up a last point and I am ashamed that I have to do so. What brings the need is the fact that many people judge humans differently based on a certain group they belong to. This group can be related to ideology, nationality, culture, race, sex, sexuality, religion and further on. The people who act like this - I may sometimes refer to them as racists, bigots, assholes or idiots - back their view with pseudo-logical arguments. While most of us (I hope) will agree with me that this is wrong, it MUST be explained why it is wrong.
-There are different groups of people on this world. Some belong to groups naturally, others chose to be part of a certain group.
-These groups consist of people that have certain things in common, may it be religious views, skin-color, worldvies or the fact if something's dangling between your legs or not.
-These things also influence the behavior of these people.
-However, there are lots of things that define a persons personality. Not just points that put them in certain groups but their personal background and history as well as body traits, hormones etc.
-There are so many factors of these that there can't be two people who are completely identical in every regard. Even identical twins WILL disagree on some points or show differences, despite identical bodies and family backgrounds.
-This means that there SHOULD be as many groups as there are people on this world (probably even more).
-Different people also deserve different treatment, because they have different views on, for example, happiness and since happiness is good, you can't generalize what will give everyone the most happiness.
HOWEVER.
-Many moral choices are made without knowing every person. Some are made based on a group they belong to which is valued higher or lower than another group.
-Because the members of this group are complete individuals, you cannot simply consider a group to be 'better' than another one without knowing each member properly.
-Thus, if you don't have knowledge about the subjects you are judging, you must treat them COMPLETELY equal.
This brings us to the conclusion:
-Despite all humans being different, humanity must be treated as equal, unless you know more about the single humans you're judging.

Edit: There is one thing I forgot to mention. Humans make mistakes, this is natural, but this also changes morals a little bit. Let me explain.
-People already did great things to create or restore happiness. They even committed crimes like murder to increase the happiness of many.
-However, often, when a human does something to cause a good result, it backfires; maybe, because the human wasn't aware of all the facts of the situation or because he didn't have the abilities to do it better. Or simply, there was bad luck.
-This means that there always is a risk of every plan failing.
-The fact that humans make mistake is something that every human on this world is aware of; thus, every human on this earth must keep this in mind and plan carefully.
-Because humans make mistakes naturally, the question wether an act was good or bad should be based on the intention, not on the outcome. In the end, someone who plans something bad MAY actually do something good unintentionally and vice versa.
This leads to the conclusions:
-The good intention is more important than the good result of the acts.
-Every person must consider the risks of the action and keep them in mind (or drop the plan if the risk is too high).

And this is my take on morality. That it is based on these points: Happiness (with long-term happiness as a sub-point) and personal freedom, both based on the view that all humans deserve equal treatment and equal amounts of happiness and personal freedom. More accurately: If someone does something with the intention of making people happier while respecting their personal freedom, he does the morally right thing. While errors by lack of planning may be forgivable, it is important to be reminded that people who do something like this need to think everything through and keep the consequences AND risks in mind.

PS: I must explain personal freedom a little further.
-There are many systems where people lack some freedom. In every nation, people lack freedom to do what's against the law.
-However, these freedoms are given up for certain advantages, like security, infrastructure and cable TV.
-Giving these freedoms up is a personal choice and thus, a part of freedom. It becomes problematic when it is enforced to give up freedoms. (Like, it's alright to join the army and have less rights in a lower rank; being force-recruited is not alright and thus, force-recruiting is immoral)
-Your overall personal freedom just goes as far as nobody elses freedom is restricted. You are free to walk around in public space, however, you're not free to invade a persons private place, even in the wilderness where no law exists and no bargain to give away personal freedom has been done (however, under extreme circumstances, the unhappiness prevented from risk of death may have a higher value than the personal freedom harmed).

PPS: I just found a minor flaw that I'm willing to fix. Due to my theory, punishments would be kind of immoral because they restrict someone elses freedom. This is why I have to add this:
-Acts are more moralic if they respect each others freedom.
-However, under certain situations, the advantages of doing something good can be so great that ignoring someone elses freedom is acceptable.
-If someone commits an immoral act against someone else, this act must be punished, ESPECIALLY if said person is a member of a society or group where something like that is restricted. For the punishment, the criminals personal freedom shall be ignored.
-However, the punishment should consider the long-term-effects as well as the effects on other people to be fair.

So, what do you think? Give me your thoughts! How should I know if my theory is true if there is nobody opposing it?
Dear reader, I hope that I can write this article as unbiased as possible. Note that I have no professional insight in this topic; I'm just commenting on it as an individual who is interested in this certain debate. First, I'll list advantages and disadvantages I see in legal drugs and then write a small final comment.

Advantages:
-Most of the illegal drug trade, one of the greatest branches of modern crime, would be shut down. There still would be some that provides illegal drugs or VERY cheap drugs but due to the possibility to get drugs legally, this will become a minority.
-The drugs will be clean. Because they'll be produced by legal companies, the production will be much safer and healthy ingredients will be used. This will save many lives and will keep many junkies relatively functional in daily life.
-Acquisitive crime will be reduced. Unlike the normal cost curve for highly addictive drugs (first doses for free, then higher and higher prices), junkies will have to pay equally for every dose; said dose being clean. Junkies that get treatment may even receive free doses that are slowly reduced over time to get off the addictive drug OR may be provided with a non-addictive solution.
-Huge tax income. Of course the drugs will be taxed.
-Possibility to control the drugs that are on the market, the doses that are sold and the prices.
-More legal jobs in drug production and selling.

Disadvantages:
-Larger numbers of drug use. If it's legal, you can rather test it out, right?
-Less stigmatising of drugs. While this is good for junkies who may reintegrate into society and get off the needle more easily, this may also mean that some people will dare to get high in inappropriate situations.
-Effects on the medical industry: This is an interesting one. If medical companies can now produce something that many want and will pay much for, they will change their production. This also means that medical companies will be less interested in getting people free from drugs. The result: More legal drugs get produced, less medicine (especially medicine that gets people drug-free), some companies may even search for loopholes to get slightly addictive drugs on the market... or try to sell medication to get free from drugs with less efficiency to make people get high, then down, then high, then down...
-Higher rape-rates. This doesn't have to happen but I see the danger... if people get their hands easily on drugs, there may be more cases of people ending up with spiced drinks... or some predators who especially look out for those that are high. And finally...
-Pressure of using drugs to raise productivity: Something we already see in the US. Many people use described or legal drugs to stay awake during work and stay up longer, then other drugs to have some free time (party), then some to get some sleep. With more legalized drugs, this will even rise. It may go so far that those who don't use drugs may get less and worse jobs.

In the end, the two major disadvantages are of economical nature, or simply: The free market will be a bitch like always, especially in completely economy-liberal nations, so obviously, there is quite of control demanded in this area. However, drug crime nowadays becomes so terrible that legalization may be the only possible option left, since prohibition does lots of harm as well.
Well, on to my next non-revolutionary theory...
The core of this theory really shouldn't be anything new. It should be something every person should know already but so many people do it wrong, as far as I know, that I HAVE to write this down.

For this, I should tell something about my own relationship.
It pretty much started with me talking with a girl, starting to roleplay with her. It turned out that we could talk very well with each other. We didn't have the same opinions all the time, not completely the same interests. We were similar enough to have many topics we could talk about and enough differences to keep us discussing and arguing. She was a girl, I was a guy but at first, the most important point was our talks. We were friends and at first, I didn't even have a crush on her or anything. That needed time to develop.

However, even when I had a crush on her and vice versa, even when we became and stayed a couple, this relationship we had at the very beginning remained. Sure, we're together now but I'd see that more like an... upgrade, to use a bad metaphor. We are friends as much as we're a couple. What I mean with this is that we can talk a lot about stuff, can discuss (in quite serious ways) as well as we can cuddle and do all the cheezy stuff.

But there are quite a lot of people out there who just go romantic on somebody who they love or have a crush on. They give nice compliments and all and for some, this might be enough. For others, it isn't and then, these people complain. 'I was so kind to you and you still rejected me?'
That is the case because as awesome as a person might be for personality and stuff that isn't just looks and sex, love often won't be enough. More important is interest, not just for the other ones feelings but also for hobbys, music, political interests, architecture or whatever your partner is into. Don't try to leave the friendzone. Don't just offer a shoulder to cry on and to huggle close to but also a tank for the MMO, an exercise and discussion partner and all that stuff. Don't leave the friendzone but make it grow into something more. Don't just be a love interest, be a friend.

Again, this is of course just a theory... but in my case, I'm happy to say that it works.
First of all, note that this is just a theory. I don't, by any means, want to insult anybody with it. If you disagree with these theories, write a comment, criticise me, I'd be absolutely willing to learn.
Also, of course, all the things I say aren't rules that always fit. There are exceptions, of course.

Alright, let's get started.

The main difference is how men and women show their love about each other.
This theory doesn't nessecarily work in homosexual relationships I'm afraid. I might be wrong with that too though.
For the ordinary, average man, the career is directly tied with women. To find that out, you just have to ask some of your male friends or buddies, I heard guys in my former class openly admitting them. They wanted a good, well-paid job and they wanted to have success in it. The cash and the respect is an important reason for that but also, they wanted to be able to impress women and to be able to feed their families.
For many women, a career is important too. But it's not important as in 'without it, I'm a failure to my partner', but 'without it, I'm dependent'. Their career is important for their independance.
That, of course doesn't mean that women care less for boyfriend, husband and family. They just don't mix their care up with their job, their career and reputation. For them, this kind of care is much more emotional. Which can, in extreme cases, lead to a certain paranoia about what they say and how they act.

Let's take a plain argument as an example.
A woman dressed up for a man, he doesn't notice it because he's tired from work. For her, she is showing her care for him by making herself pretty for him, while he can't understand the ruckus. For him, he shows his care for her by putting efford in the work.
This might sound weird, maybe even a sexist but here comes the point: This isn't something concious. It's sub-concious. So many men are like 'It's impossible to understand women'. It's not. Not if you manage to understand this difference and understand that they think similary about men. And vice versa, which is the reason why many men seem to be so ignorant idiots to women.

Tell me what you think about it, more of my retarded ideas will follow.
Recently, I tried something.
As you know, I'm more a writer then a photographer (or PMG artist - a man can be bored, right?) and some weeks ago, I stumbled over a website. It's called ask.fm ( www.ask.fm ). On this website, the users can get questions from other users or random people, anonymously if so desired.
Generally, people use it to farm likes like on facebook and bully each other.
But I tried something differently.
I opened an account, 'the storyteller' and offered everybody to ask me for a story. They just have 300 latters to describe their wish and I just have around 3000 latters to respond. So, it's quite limited.
The reactions were surprising.
I got around thirty followers now. Not as much as some other users who get hundreds and thousands but then, I'm just on the website for around a week or less and never prostituted myself to get followers and likers. I got lots of compliments for my writing, quite some requests, a hater (because one of my watchers is a homosexual and his hater turned on me too; I just can't take a guy with the username 'Davidisabloodyfaggot' seriously) and... well, it's very, very satisfying.
Even Jesus Christus follows me, on my other account there though. :P
So... if you guys want to check it out, I'll leave the link on the end of the journal. But that isn't the point.
The point is that it's surprisingly inspiring to allow people to give you offers and to fulfill them in limited time, with limited ressources. The limitations don't hinder the creative process, the opposite is the case. I wrote some very... new stories I liked very much (on german though, sorry for that but if I get requests on english, I'll respond). So, if you guys think that you need experience or if you have a block, try something like this. Let others give you offers and tell you to do that art in a limited time... you'd be surprised. Or not, at least this is just my experience yet.

The story-account: ask.fm/Aergernis
My main account: ask.fm/Arabascan
Jesus: ask.fm/jesuschristus
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1. The First five people who comment, I will put their avatars up here on this journal, along with the three deviations I like best from your gallery.
2. If you do comment, however, please do the same in your own journal.

It was originally fifteen people. So I have to excuse for reducing the number, but my RL eats my time lately.

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Hello, my fellow deviantarters or how else I should call you. I know, just few people find the way to my profile but I hope that as many people as possible, especially those from germany can read this. Because the problem, the story I'll write about now isn't just my problem but the story of a lot of people.

To understand the story, you must know that my family gets welfare. My partents divorced, my mother DOES work but she just has a small job. If a job gives less money then welfare would do, one gets the full money (the missing money from the authorities) and is on welfare. That's a german law. The people that get this increased payment are on 'Unemployment benefits II', also called 'Hartz 4' and have to follow these laws. Hartz-4 originally was made for people that are unemployed for a longer time, like, years.

This year, I just finished my school. I know what I want to do with my time, what job I want to get. I have plans for my future, maybe a little optimistic, but there's just one way to find out if I aim too high or not. I want to become a journalist. And every journalist needs multiple placement trainings. Means, he works in a lower position at the newspaper, a TV or a radio station - mostly for free. And in that time, he learns a lot about his job. I want to do that.

But I just got bad news from the authorities. Since I don't earn anything during these trainings, I'd kinda break the law. I would be 'unwilling to work', since I don't gain money the authorities can take (as I said, I live on welfare). So, if I don't instantly go to a university or start working, the whole group I am in gets no money anymore. As in, everybody who lives in the apartment I live in. Me, my mother, my siblings. And we NEED that money. We need that money to pay for our home, our food, power, water, internet and phone.

Because of these laws, I might be forced to give up my future plans. I might be forced to go a way that isn't mine because letting my family live without money is definately not an option. So the laws that have been created to reduce unemployment basically push me in a situation where I might be unemployed or at least not have the job I want to do and I'm good in.

These laws are bad for the people and the economy itself.

And what bugs me most: Those who get Hartz-4 are often despised by other, employed people. Because the general image of an unemployed person on Hartz-4 here is a person that doesn't want to work and just wants to live on welfare.

The contract I was forced to sign that puts me in this situation is titled 'integration contract'.
It should be called an exclusion contract.

You might ask me what is the moral behind this story. I don't know. I just know that this situation makes me sick, literally. I am not to blame for this situation, nor my mother, my dad. Just these laws.

I am going back to work now. Maybe I can find a way around the contract.

Maybe I have more luck then the other 4.5 million people that are in this situation just in germany.
Today, I uploaded some of my hitfeld pics. I rarely use a camera, this was a cheap, digital one. And halfway through my walk around at this place, the battery died.
And yet, I got so many faves today... WAY too many to thank everybody who faved me (I admit it, I am lazy.)
I stopped at a pic with the number 945 but there still are more pics. And some day, I'll go to that place again and take all the pics I couldn't because of my battery death. This place really is beautiful and I'd love to share its beauty with you.
So... thank you that you faved my pics. I would really like some feedback, criticism, even if my photographing style will probably not improve. And all hail goes to this wonderful place.
Until later!
I just wanted to say one thing.
I never really saw the point in mature content filters. Didn't think that much about it. But when you're sitting in a public library, going though your pictures and suddenly remember that you are watching certain artists who deal with... complicated themes *coughbdsmcough*... Then you thank god and the admins for creating that filter.
Thank you. :)
This journal was editted on the request of somebody special.

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♥ To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"...
♥ To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"...
♥ To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her...
♥ To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down...
♥ To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls...
♥ To every guy that said he would die for her...
♥ To every guy that really would...
♥ To every guy that did what she wanted to die for...
♥ To every guy that cried in front of her...
♥ To every guy that she cried in front of...
♥ To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥ To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
♥ To every guy that hugs her when she's sad...
♥ To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all...
♥ To every guy who would give their jacket up for her...
♥ To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe...
♥ To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes...
♥ To every guy that would give his seat up...
♥ To every guy that just wants to cuddle...
♥ To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what...
♥ To every guy who told his secrets to her...
♥ To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath...
♥ To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one...
♥ To every guy that believed in her dreams...
♥ To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them...
♥ To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams...
♥ To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door...
♥ To every guy that gave his heart...
♥ To every guy who prays that she is happy even if he's not with her...
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EDIT
Most of this sounds pretty... amazing on the first sight. That's why I posted and forgot this but recently, somebody analysed these lines for me... and... well, here is the analysed version.

♥ To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"...
You, sir, are clearly not a rapist. Congratulations.

♥ To every guy that just wants to cuddle...
You might be surprised but sex actually matters in a relationship, for both sides. If you just want to cuddle, your partner might start missing something.

♥ To every guy that gave his heart...
♥ To every guy who prays that she is happy even if he's not with her...
♥ To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"...
♥ To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her...
♥ To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down...
♥ To every guy that did what she wanted to die for...
♥ To every guy that cried in front of her...
♥ To every guy that she cried in front of...
♥ To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥ To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
♥ To every guy that hugs her when she's sad...
♥ To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all...
♥ To every guy who would give their jacket up for her...
♥ To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe...
♥ To every guy that would give his seat up...
♥ To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what...
♥ To every guy who told his secrets to her...
♥ To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath...
♥ To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one...
♥ To every guy that believed in her dreams...
♥ To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them...
♥ To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams...
This is a long segment now but seriously, aren't all these things kind of... normal for a relationship? Huggling your partner, talking about your secrets, being nice, caring? But right... this is about the nice guys.

♥ To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door...
♥ To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls...
You, sir, are a gentleman. Some girls like that, some don't. I actually heard a girl saying that she'd be freaked by somebody who opens the door for her...

♥ To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes...
♥ To every guy that said he would die for her...
♥ To every guy that really would...
This is really kind of creepy at times. Somebody who'd die for her? *coughstalkercough*

Well, in the end, I must admit something. I am not nice. I don't just want to cuddle, even if I like to cuddle a lot. I'm a pervert (not my words), I'm a meanie at times (not my words either), I'm a smartass and sometimes, I can't show empathy. It's not about being nice and perfect. It's about caring and about being yourself. I'm not a nice guy but there are still people who consider me awesome.
Yes, there are girls out there who like 'bad boys'. This goes so far that some rapists get spammed by fanmail in prison, mostly by women. I am not kidding you. There is even a professional term for this... 'nice guys', you might be interested in this.
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By the way, said person requested me to add up this. Don't ask. PLEASE, don't ask. :|

♥  To all the guys who wanted to wear a dress because she wanted them to...
Heya guys.
First, I want to tell you a story. In a chatroom, I got some nasty situations. I got called a Nazi. I got asked why I'm not ashamed for the crimes of the Nazis. And I want to tell you something about this.
I've been born in 1993, 58 years after the end of WWII. I didn't commit any crimes back then, so why should I feel shame? I am german, yes, but I'm no racist. I accept all religions, genders and sexual orientations. I have black family members, christians and muslims. I have problems with Israel, but I'm not antisemitic, more antizionist, and even some jews are. So I am not a nazi too. And someone who tells someone because of his nationality that he's a nazi or should feel ashamed is more a nazi then I am, at least in my opinion.


Second thing, I would like you to watch this video and support it. It's not made by me, I don't have to do anything with it, but it deserves support.

www.youtube.com/watch?feature=…

Have a nice life and lotsa fun. Greetings, Arabascan.
Dear deviantarters:
I really appreciate your art. However, sometimes, I get around 200 new watch messages per day. I'll be away for around 3 weeks now (school trip and holidays) and rarely have internet. I really would appreciate it, if you don't post new art until I'm back, if you don't want me to have around 10000 messages then... :P
No, really. Bye! I will come back, I promise!
Arabascan
This weekend I was on a festival. M'Era Luna, a goth festival. I'm not a goth but the lineup was good (Apocalyptica, Within Temptation and ASP), so I got my ticket and went there.

When I was there, I saw a girl in our travelling group I didn't knew jet. She was nice and everything. In the train, she seemed to like me, wanted to sit next to me and talked to me. Two or three hours later, I was in love with her.

There was also a friend of her who travelled with us and who introduced her and stuff. When we were alone at a moment, he told me something about the past of this girl. Just some things, but enough that I promised him to watch her that she will not do something stupid. That means getting seduced to have meaningless sex with someone or stuff like this.

I will not tell most of the stuff I know about her past and her family. These are very personal, sad and terrible things, experiences who (in my opinion) destroyed her and let her become someone with LOTS of problems who talks about herself as "fat" and "whore" (what she isn't). I'm happy that she trusted me and told me some of these things and that her friend trusted me and told me that to get that promise. I will not write lot about it. But to understand the story, you have to know that she has a boyfriend but loves someone else. Not me, unfortunately.

Let's continue.

When we arrived at the festival, we met her brother who guarded a place for our tents. We also met his friends. Some of them seemed to be rude, some of them seemed to be polite. We built our tents and stuff. That girl wanted to sleep in a tent with other girls, but some of them had boyfriends or had other reasons. So she decided to share her tent with me.

When I heard this, I had two thoughts. The first one was SCORE! But the second thought reminded me to my promise. I wanted to watch that she will have no meaningless sex. And I didn't wanted to be her one-night-stand. But I also knew that she is in love with someone and that this might be my only chance to have something with her.

I also found out that she likes to cuddle. At least she calls it "Cuddling". But for me, it was very intimate and a complete new experience. I didn't knew lots of girls who were so physically close to me. Or psychologically. I am very shy and never had a real relationship.

We cuddled in the night from friday to saturday. We cuddled at saturday when Apocalyptica, Within Temptation and ASP played. The music was perfect, I was close to the girl I loved. Everything was perfect.

Then she decided to party.

She drank too much. She was surrounded with guys. She seemed to be happy about it, but these guys looked at her with something... greedy and disgusting in their eyes. Me and her friend tried to protect her, but she seemed to be unhappy about it. At some point, her friend told me that he will take the part of the asshole to protect her. I dunno why, but I think that he trusted me and wanted that she trusts me so that I can protect her too.

It was a party. I don't like partys. The people drank lots of alcohol. I hate alc. They danced. I don't like to dance.

One of her brothers chummers told me that I should drink or go. It wasn't completely serious, but I drank. Well, I acted like it but at some point, I had to drink. If I wouldn't, I would have to go away. She would be unprotected. And I would blame myself, so I stayed.

And then, because I was tipsy for the first time in my life, I told that guy that I love her.

He laughed at me. Especially when I told him about my promise. He said that I should try to fuck because I needed practice. And that I should fuck her too because I just live once. That the world is a dark place and that everyone should have as much fun as possible without caring about others. He laughed at my love and at my principles. And he wanted me to break a promise I gave someone else and me too.
And then he started to grab her.
That asshole. And just a few minutes before, I thought that he was nice.

When she didn't listen, I told him that she shouldn't touch her. I asked him, using a "please". But I just wanted to punch my fist in his stupid face. I mean, he lost my trust and wanted to destroy her even more. I was shocked. And I was frustated that these people exist and even seem to be nice. He told me that he was like me years before and that he knew what he was talking about, but then he left her in peace.

At the next morning (nothing happened, I protected her from these guys and controlled me), she said that if someone (except her beloved one) would tell her that he loves her, she wouldn't believe him. That this guy probably just want to have sex. I asked her if she thinks the same about me. And I told her that I love her.

It was a victory when she said that she would believe me. But it was a pain that I knew that she still was in love with someone else. And then she talked with me about her past. It was a long morning, it rained outside and we stayed and talked.

I was incredibly happy that she trusted me. That she gave me this illusion of love and that she gave me hope.


She went home with her brother and his friends. I don't think I will see her again in the next months. I am incredibly jealous because she doesn't loves me. But I am also proud of myself. I protected her, even if she said that it wasn't nessecary and embarrasing, but believe me, it was nessecary. And she trusted me. I gained her trust in two days. I also gained some self-esteem and self-confidence because she let me touch her, caress her, even kissed me (but without the tongue). It was wonderful and erotic. And I didn't had sex with her. I think I had the chance, but if I did, I would be disgusted by myself. I even think that I couldn't life with the knowledge that I'm not better than the asshole. But I WAS better.

Now I sit in front of my PC. I cry. I know that I will never be her boyfriend. I hope that she stays with the guy she loves, that he can heal her problems and that they become happy. But there is this little voice that just says: That will be someone else. Not you. And I cry...

But I have to thank her. She really changed my life. Today I talked with my family about some things. I always feared these unpleasant but importand talks and avoided them, but she gave me the hope and courage I lost at some point in my life. I am sad but I know that I have the chance now to become happy.

Jasi, I thank you for these three days. I owe you something really big. I will never be able to return that favour. You helped me without knowing it. You gave me hope, and this is just one of the many reasons why you aren't worthless as you said. You are something very special. I love you.

Stop your relationship, even if your beloved one still has something to do before you can be together. Become his girlfriend, be beloved by him. Get well. Your past was terrible, but it created something that is worth to be protected. You gave me hope, now try to gain your own.

If you read this, you should know that I would like to be your friend. I will listen to everything you want to tell, will not ask what you don't want to tell and try to help you. You opened my heart. It's just fair if you are the first person who profits by all the love inside. And I hope that you did this with your beloved one too, and that he will do this to you.

Stay together. Take care of you. Get well soon. Become lucky. You are beautiful, you are beloved by the person you love, you have friends who would do everything for you. Don't let these assholes win. You are strong enough to be victorious. And at some point in the future, you will look back and laugh in their faces because they failed to destroy you.

Be blessed.
Arabascan.



PS:
WHY DO I WROTE THIS?

Because I want the world to know what you did for me. Because I don't want to forget. Because I am sad, happy and proud of me and you. Because I won against the assholes who tried to damage you. Because I started to win against the assholes who damaged me.
Because I love you.
Because you love him who loves you too.
And because I wish the best for you two...
Got tagged by aquariusdanica.deviantart.com/

1→You must post these rules.
2→Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3→You have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.  (Impossible for me because I dunno how to post someones icon)
4→Go to their pages and tell them you tagged them.
5→No tag backs.
6→No crap in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you read this". You legitimately have to tag ten people.

So...
1.: I'm 18 years old. And live in germany.
2.: I'm a nerd.
3.: I'm proud of it.
4.: I write short stories, create PnP-worlds and try to get a job were I can do it and earn money.
5.: As you can see on my favourites list, I like BDSM. But mostly because of the bondage-thing.
6.: I'm kinda of internet dependent. Doesn't mean that I don't have social contacts in real life, but internet is very important for me (almost as important as real life. Almost)
7.: I like noodles, cheese and the combination, but I also like really good (and, unfortunately, expensive) food. I tried almost everything, from japanese to portugese and turkish food and liked most of it.
8.: At the moment, I'm spending most of my free time on watching Avatar.
9.: I need lots of sleep.
10.: I expect the world to turn in a fallout-like world in the near future, but I'm kinda happy of living in a postapocalyptic world (but I would miss the internet).

Well, then I'll tag:
oscarjohansson.deviantart.com/
pronice.deviantart.com/
raben-aas.deviantart.com/
robbe25.deviantart.com/
sickdeathfiend.deviantart.com/
biometal79.deviantart.com/
cheshyre.deviantart.com/
fexes.deviantart.com/
heartofdeath.deviantart.com/
ashwings.deviantart.com/


Well, then... bye!
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Today I searched for "Amok". I expected something tragic, something that shows the evil of running amok. I mostly found erotic pics.

This is... macabre.
I fave pictures I like. I watch artist who make (in my opinion) good art. So you don't have to thank me. I thank you for sharing your art with everyone. You make a good job and I wish I had your talent. Keep going.

However, it's polite to say thanks, so I'll not gripe.
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If you comment on this journal, I'll reply back saying:

1. Something I learned about you looking at your DA page for 13 seconds.

2. What color do you remind me of.

3. My first memory of you.

4. Something I've always wondered about you.

5. What I like the most about you.

6. I'll give you a weird name.

7. I'll tell you what it is on my shirt right now.

8. Tell you a pokemon you remind me of. (I don't know pokemon, so I changed it into "movie or book character".)

9. I'll challenge you to post this in your journal as well.